ever notice how you only realise how alone you are until you need someone's shoulder to cry on?

Recently i've felt so alone that i've preyed not waking up from my dreams....my dreams are so beautiful, in them i'm often in love with someone that cares for, i often have friends.

In life i sleep in an empty bed, with an empty heart. Even though i'm at college and i have mates there, their not really friends, ya know. Their not the kind of friends i want to share everything with.

Sometimes i jsut want to curl up and die. everything i have always wanted is out of my reach. I'm not sure i ave the confidence to have another relationship. But being alone is so painful...i cry my self to sleep most nights.

I've started self harming again too...I thought i had got past it, but i dunno it just helps the emotional pain. No wonder i'm alone, who wants to be with damaged goods.